News–I think.

This is about how I am feeling at this particular moment in time regarding the status of our adoption.  So you can imagine where this post is going.

I received an email from our agency late Tuesday (I think, I have lost track of what day it actually is) that at this time we can not be incorporated into the list because they are trying to process families who have already been accepted.  So I guess that is code for “they are backlogged”.  It was suggested to us that we resubmit our information after the first of the year.  Hmmmm.  In a most bizarre twist, when we received the news I wasn’t even phased–I am still trying to psychoanalyze that one.  I believe that my reaction can be attribute to a couple of things 1. I have learned that I am so not in control, 2.  I believe that no matter how many bumps you encounter along the way, the right child for your family will be with you, 3.  I have waaaaay too many things going on right now to dwell on something I can’t control.  So I would attribute it to letting go of all the little things that clutter up my mind.  Because in the end, it is what it is!  Where do we go from here you ask?   More waiting.  It is the curse/blessing of the endless paper pregnancy.